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Today when to interview .. Ytd nights was a tiring nights .. sitting down with jiande at mac looking and looking for jobs and information on things useful for today's interview. but in the end wat did i get was all e disencouragement by my family.. what e point when i am willing to go for an extra miles is my life and i knows wat to do with it. hais. :( forget i got nothing more to state about wat has already happen which makes me feel really really down even i did perform well.. hais.. traveling there was like someone is making me through a test a tougher test which is more den the interview. at first travel till there den was looking around with jiande along . lucky he is there to pei me or not i will be lose alone . hais.. cant find the bus stop as state and calling around and what i get was a loads of information which doesnt have any links at all.. till i called e person myself in e end and ask and get e information myself.. hais. :( so sorry to jiande cause he when around with me and become so wet dat he still helped me to carry my stuff and ensure tat is still dry .. seeing him liketat makes me more wanting to do things on my own and settle it without getting anyone help and anyway i didnt get any help den e only help by him and how we got our ways there was like a miracle .. ya i was late .. hais.. after so much preparation .. hais.. :( everythings was like gone to waste and lose in e faith tat i will be able to get e jobs even i did well in e interview .. hais.. so wat . whatever i do .. ppls tends to kick me back into e hole where i belong not letting me walk out again.. what bigs things has i do wrong since i entering ns and finish it .. all e burdens are handle by myself.. but haiss.. being thoughtful is wrong .. ppl makes my confidence drop to negative den zero.. all along wat i get was all those hurting words.. wherever i am . dun go listen dun go think. but what do u think ? some of u also need support in lifes when diffcults stands in e way .. but intended more worse things has become for me .. everyone seem like making me feel so much lowdown den willing to go ahead ... if i am tat bad den why should u all care and why should i care ? i am really very very down and moody today . but thanks alot to jiande .. all along he didnt complain anything and didnt even stop giving me encourage till e end .. even aftertat he still encourage me all e way and keep on cracking jokes to make me laugh and smiles.. brothers u really was there for me when i needed , thansk so much.. wat u did and shown me today i will rmb it for life? rmb wat did we says mahs? let achieve and dun ever let anyone in this DISPRESENT WORLD get over u or me .. ppl says friends and only friends .. when u faces trouble familys are e only one.. which wat happen today it has proven to me tat i totally lost my faith in this family of my's and pls dun regret or say anything when u come across my blog cause i need nothing from u all from now onwards!!! i will survive myself and will be more independants to myself rather to choose my owns lifes den always let u all do things and got chances to say me .. not now anymore and no more in e future too.. :( hais.